Tolerance

Every single thing in my life is flowing on a negative way... It’s all against me! Nothing is positive… why so??

A gleam of sunshine, a tiny hope for success, a path towards future…

It’s always cold inside in spite of the temperature beyond.

I was thinking, if everything was set to examine my tolerance? I always used to believe I am a tolerant person. The past has proven my tolerance towards obstacles I’ve been through. I will never say give up because I wanna prove I can do it. I can be tough enough to handle things and overcome my weaknesses. I am proud of myself, for being someone better than before, and for being someone who can think rationally and wisely in every circumstance. Well, maybe not every single one but at least I always ensure I am on the right track.

“忍耐是一种痛苦的磨练，是对成功的渴望，对自我的挑战，也是对自己意志力的锤炼”。

But, how long can I sustain??

Maybe, my desire towards success is over the border.
Maybe, I should let myself relax awhile.
Maybe, it’s a lesson for me.
Maybe, it’s a test for me.
Maybe, I am just being unfortunate.

Words can’t exactly tell my thoughts and feelings now.

Sometimes, I just don’t understand what exactly I should go for.
Sometimes, I dislike the way I am.
Sometimes, I hope I am someone else.
Sometimes, I think I should accept the way I am.
Sometimes, I was thinking life is on my own hand and because of that, I can change everything I want in life.
However sometimes, not everything I want can really be mine, so I have to let go…

Now that I started to feel exhausted for being always patient, patient and patient
I doubt myself…

我可以再忍耐吗? 还是逃避?

How I wish I was on the beach now to shout out as loud as possible! Throw out all the confusions and troubles I have inside me! Too bad all I can see in Singapore are buildings, roads and cars. Boring zzz~

Really miss those nice sceneries in Australia! How I wish to go there again =(

I wish to spend my time sitting on the bench enjoying the beauty of nature and breathing in fresh air.

Or

Laying on the seashore to feel the movement of wave!

Words to express

Things are kindda complicated for me now, whether it’s my career, my emotion, my thoughts or friendship. Been suffered from insomnia lately =(

Always bear in mind, “Never expect too much from something or someone as it leads to disappointment”.

Anyway, what I really wanna focus on now is my career. I’ll just let other things to be set aside first. This doesn’t mean I do not care, but I’m just too tired to bother so much already.

I don’t expect much now as long as I can stay tough and be strong enough to face everything in my life. Should I say I feel helpless?? ........No one can help me but myself...

I'm glad that I have friends who are always there to support and care about me though they are not by my side. And of course, my beloved parents and relatives in Kuching. I promise to show my achievement one day.

I just hope time passes as fast as possible because I’m looking forward the future which I believe will be a brighter one!

Will blog more when I found a suitable job!

Singapore!

So here I am in Singapore!

It has been 6 days since I arrived here. At first, I felt kindda uneasy with the life here. Staying 10 levels above and walking with people pushing here and there. *swt*.

Miss driving and walking around without people squeezing me instead of being a sandwich here. @.@

Anyhow, 6 days passed and I started to get used to the life here. I’m good in adapting new places or environment, so no worries *winkz*

How can I get used to the environment quickly? Firstly, I have experience staying abroad alone (during my study in Perth). Besides, I went out alone often using a MRT map

(http://www.smrt.com.sg/trains/routemap/routemap.pdf) and a Singapore map. xD (I can adapt faster traveling alone ^^) Anyway, it’s not that tough to go to a place in Sg because there are sign boards everywhere, so pretty okay if I can always take note of it. And of course, not forgetting the use of my mouth (This is what I did the most in Perth but not quite effective in Sg)

Well, so far I’ve been to Ochard, Vivo City, Bugis and China Town. Going to Suntec Mall later to meet my beloved relatives again =D I’m glad bro and his gf bought me a Singapore pocket guide (map included) for my birthday because it really ease me a lot in my journey. Thanks a lot!

Regarding my job hunting, I had an interview with the agent yesterday at Bugis. Gosh, I was wearing high heels walking all the way to look for the company. The agent introduced me to do sales for beauty products. They couldn’t disclose the company name. Sienz~. However, this is not the job I’m looking for. I’m actually looking for marketing rather than sales. =.= Thus, I have 3 days to consider about it.

Moreover, I received a call from New York Solution just now for an interview next Monday at Jurong East (shit this is so far!!). Again, it’s another beauty center but it’s not doing sales. The position for me in New York Solution is management trainee. Not quite sure about the job but I will give it a try at least an interview. Seems like I have fate with beauty center… @.@

All in all, I hope I can get a good job with good pay ASAP!! Ciaoz~

Farewell

Ah!!! .It’s the last day in Kuching… and also my Birthday today! The feeling is kindda complicated and indescribable. I always hope to have a chance to start my career in Singapore and now I got it. I should feel glad now… But…Somehow, I feel so unwilling to leave my hometown. Starting to get used to my life here already I guess. Sobz.

Just had a dinner with Rowin, Vivien, Jeremy and his Gf at Sushi King, Spring! I really do enjoy the meal with them and I think we had 14 plates of sushi!! The price is still reasonable because we have the sms promotion which allowed us to buy 1 free 1 for each plate of sushi, very wu hua lei?? ^ ^ ( For more info, feel free to ask me) This is my first sushi meal in Kuching lei~ and also the first time for me to taste salmon! Finally, I swallowed salmon! Oh dear~ Thanks for Vivien. Haha… The way she eats salmon tempted me to give it a bite xD Will miss u guys lots, my movie mates aka limteh mates!!! Feel so unwilling to leave them so soon… =(

Besides, I had another dinner with Kevin, Wennie and Pei yee at Mr. Ho’s Restaurant the previous night. We shared 4 different western dishes which then caused us FULL till the brim …*burp* Too bad Wennie was too busy or else we could have spent more time together that night. Anyway, thanks a lot for being such a nice friend for me. =)

Last but not least, I’m glad I have the chance to meet up my childhood playmate aka cousin (my Biao Ge), Johnson who just came back from KL. It’s been more than a year since we last met. Brought him to Spring this afternoon, I mean yesterday for a walk. But too bad he complaint nothing much to shop… *swt* of course KL is still better…:s

Some updates in Kuching

I’m back again my friends! Sorry for not blogging for quite sometime till Kevin complaint to me about my idle blog. =p

Well, life in Kuching ain’t that interesting at all so nothing much to tell. Thus, I’ll just briefly describe things that I do during my “goyang kaki” period. XD

Basically, I’ll be my mum’s personal driver during the weekdays sending her to work and anywhere she wants to go. Among these week days, Wednesday will be a movie day with Rowin, Vivien, Jeremy and his girlfriend. Friday will be lim teh day with some high school friends (normally). As for weekends, there will be a gathering dinner at grandma’s place every Saturday night. Sunday will be real BORING staying at home. =(

So this is basically my life in the recent days and I am waiting towards my days in Singapore!! =D

Hrm, feel like talking about what I did today. Hehe…okay here comes my personal diary!

As usual, I sent mum to work this afternoon. It’s a HOT HOT day *swt* There were 2 tasks to be settled after that. First, ordered my own birthday cake =.= , then sent my comforter to laundry for dry cleaning.

My birthday is supposed to be next Friday but because grandma will be celebrating her birthday tomorrow so my relatives asked if I want to celebrate mine as well with grandma ( me and grandma celebrate birthday together almost every year, that’s why). I’m actually not in the mood for birthday. Don’t know why.

Aunt 7 called me this morning.

Aunt: Xin ah! Just woke up??
Me: yea…(in a sleepy tone)
Aunt: R u gonna celebrate birthday tomorrow?
Me: I think so…(in an uncertain tone)
Aunt: huh?? U think so?? Got or not?? Have u ordered your cake?
Me: nope
Aunt: huh….
Me: Later I go order…

Therefore, I ordered a blueberry cheesecake at Southern Cake Shop myself since no one is as free as me. *sad*

Something awkward happened in the shop. Blur blur me!

When I was asked to fill in my information in the order form, I wrote my name as “Mok Hui Xin” (as if I’m filling some kind of formal form =.= stupid! why not just Mok or Emelyne??). And when it comes to wording on the cake… I was thinking of writing “Happy Birthday to Hui Xin” because my relatives all know me as Hui Xin. But then *OPPs*, I can’t let the girl know I’m actually buying a birthday cake for myself, pai seh lerr!! @.@( she was there standing and looking at what am I gonna write…hrmmm) For that reason, I decided to jot down “Happy Birthday to Emelyne!” HAHA. Will let everyone know Emelyne is my English name in case some of my relatives are not aware of it. Hehe

After the cake ordering, went to the bank to withdraw some money.

Aunt 7 called me again when I was driving.

Aunt: Do u want a bag for your birthday?
Me: what type or bag?
Aunt: Backpack kind of Bag, u can use it in Singapore.
Oh dear, I was thinking I am not going to carry that type of bag to work. =.=
Me: erm, I think u can just gimme Ang pau lor. HAHA! Easy and Fast ler! No need so mahuan. LOL
Aunt: LOL. Walauer so straight forward hor u! okay lah
Me: yup =p

When I was still a kid, I loved to receive presents, because for me Ang Pau is useless. All the Ang Paus I received were kept by my parents to be saved inside my piggy bank. When I grew up, I no longer like presents but MONEY inside the Ang Paus! Even if I save it in the bank, I still own an ATM card! So much easier to withdraw ler! HAHA! xD Everyone Loves Money!! Accept the fact!

Trapped in the traffic jam for a couple of minutes at 3rd mile…SienZ… then got myself a cup of pearl milk tea at Cool, just couldn’t stand the hot weather! And you know what? I nearly knock into a motorcyclist. I got freaked out when he beeped me. Feel so sorry to him… he must have got shocked badly. I have no idea where he comes from because I didn’t notice him at all when I was about to turn at the junction. Sorry Uncle...

At night, our lim teh gathering was off. Too bad~ But I still managed to visit Spring with bro and his girlfriend (though I need to be a bulb @.@) for my mask from The Face Shop. Hope it helps… my face is getting so dry….sadly T.T

My graduation

Okay, well, it’s time to talk about my graduation in Bentley campus.

My graduation day fell on the 12th of February 2008. Unlike in Miri campus, Bentley campus’s graduation days were held in many days all over February. Tooooo many students!! One ceremony is like approximately 400+ students. Gosh…

All graduates were sitting in front where as visitors behind.

This was how it looks like to be held openly instead of indoor. (only for February graduation)

2 screens were displayed to give the audience a clearer vision.

All those PHD graduates on the stage.

Turning back to face our parents as a respect

When we have just arrived campus for my graduation

With mum and dad

Jeanette, me, teck lim, ing ming and janet infront

colin, me, edna, delicia and teck lim graduating on the same day as me

Met Fiona's sister graduating on the same day as me ^ ^

With my business capstone friends (Monique my HK groupmate and Andrew my classmate)

Do you know how terrible it was to wear the regalia during summer season in Perth? Freakingly HOT!!! Hot till I felt kindda sick after that ceremony =(

When the ceremony had come to an end...I looked pale

However, the special thing for February’s graduation in Curtin is that we can enjoy nice fireworks just after the ceremony ended. Very nice =)

Actually, I wanted to show the video screening me on stage and also the fireworks taken by my bro but the files are toooooo big!! Can't bother to wait that long. But never mind, I came out with an idea of using my mobile phone to take it from my laptop. hehehe... Though it's blur but at least it shows something from it. =D

A short clip of my stage presentation:

Luckily nothing sia soi happen to me xD....I was rather worry of my foot step wearing the high heels. Should practice wearing high heels more I guess.

By the way, here are the 9 different photos taken in the studio. Have a look. =)

Well, I look nice in some photos, but some not so nice =.=

Many people said I don't really look like myself in the photos.....why?? =.=

Happy New Year

Happy New Year! (Though it’s a bit late)

How did I spend my new year’s eve? For the past 2 years I’d been spending my New Year ’s Eve countdown in KL’s clubs. BUT for this year…HaHa…I was at home watching TVBS Asia with parents. Quite nice though….because it was raining cats and dogs that night. xD

2007 has been erm… quite a fulfilling year for me?
In 2007, I…

• Ended my “unpleasant” love life, which is a new beginning for me
• Said goodbye to some friends in Miri Campus
• House got broke in and lost my new Toshiba laptop T.T
• Hurt someone badly... (Trust me, this is not what I want but I'm glad it turned out to be a good thing in the end)
• Had my last semester in Bentley Campus as a student exchange (really feel lucky that I got this chance!)
• Met a lot of new friends in Perth (especially my lovely housemates who gave me so much supports and advices, and some friends I hang out with...too many to list out here)
• Mingled around with people from different countries
• Met my old net friend in building 402, suprisingly!
• Got mistaken as a Korean?? *faint*
• Graduated in Bachelor of Commerce (Finance & Marketing)
• Met the Voon’s family in Perth
• Experienced winter, spring and summer seasons in Perth
• Experienced somthing eerie one night in Perth (Gosh! really scared me off!!)
• Visited Melbourne and discovered the beauty of nature
• Worked as a waitress in Hans Café
• Started to LOVE sushi!
• Bought my first perfume!
  

What happened in year 2007 was really unexpected as I never think that I would come through so much in life. Like what people always say, we can never know what lies ahead our path. Moreover, I wanna thanks those who helped me so much last year. Will always remember you and cherish our friendship, no matter what...~

In this New Year of 2008, it is the beginning of my career life. ~.~ Though I enjoy being a student (especially in oversea), working experience is still important for oneself. So, I will start my job searching in Kuching soon *sigh*. Also, I gonna improve my driving skill! I’m not so HoMia to have driver sending me to work all the time…haha!

Besides, my hope for this New Year is to be successful in my career undertakings. I understand that it will be difficult for me in the starting but I am willing and ready to face all the obstacles! Wish me luck guys!

Last but not least, the most important thing that I need in this New Year is “Happiness”, not only for me but for everyone around me ^^ “Troubles”….shoooo far far away!

Once again, Happy New Year and Good Luck to everyone! *winkz*