Evil thing I came across

Yeah, evil people are all around the world. Most importantly, we keep ourselves clean from these evil or polluted things around us.

I’m fine with attacks.
I will SMILE, still, in front of the little evil creature
Pretend to be blur, stupid or whatever that can be described

I will be NICE
Nice as if everything is FINE

Yes it’s all fine…


Because I believe all these little evil creatures will one day be devastated

Sorry to be a lil’ nasty here.

Fuck off from my life u evil thing!

what should I say?

In the middle of the night, I should have covered myself under my blanket for a good deep sleep. Yet... I am here, in front of my laptop, awake…

It’s been a long time I haven’t been spending my time lingering in front of my laptop chatting, watching drama, surfing for clothes or beauty products or wandering in friendster. Working life is just so different! I just couldn’t spend my time in front of the laptop too much after work. I felt so stress and uneasy when I face the laptop!

That’s the reason I hardly came online or online as in “Away” in msn. Sorry if didn’t get to reply msg from someone or I happen to miss my reply.

There are many things that I wanna tell in my blog but it seems really hard to express. Many thoughts flooded my mind over the time.

Guess I better go to bed now and have a GOOD sleep… will “say out” something when the mood comes :)

Nightz

Look forward

Move on Emelyne, Move On!

That’s what I need to keep on reminding myself.

There’s no point to look back at the past, no point thinking and dreaming of it... It’s just too horrifying to have part of our life living unrealistically in the past where we knew it’s merely a dream we desperately yearn for…

Life is no longer the same as before, I have to change myself in order to complement what I have now…

Life change, people change and our principle will change as we move on to the next stage in life…

No regrets in everything I do, no turning back, and move forward for a better future and success...

My career, my company, my colleagues

Priviat!!~ (don’t know if I spelled it correctly. Btw, it’s “Hi” in Russian)

"I’m finally back to my Blogging World!!"

Just realized Lee Ping has a Blog as well!! Cool! Seem like more and more friends are having their own personal blog to keep everyone updated despite of the distance or time being apart.

And I actually understand from Su Han’s blog that I have been idle in blogging for 4 weeks! Darn…That’s the reason I should blog now for being a more responsible blogger! =D

Okay, straight to the point about my career in Singapore. I mentioned that I got a job in the previous post, as a Marketing Support Assistant in one of the real estate companies. So I believe people or friends would want to know how I have been doing in this company.

First of all, the company comprises the General Manager (our Big Boss), 3 managers (2 sales managers and 1 marketing manager), currently 1 sales executive, 2 telemarketers and me the marketing assistant. There will be 3 more staffs joining us next month for the sales executive and telemarketing positions. For your info, my job scope is basically assisting the 3 managers and doing telemarketing.

At the present time, I am more into the administration work such as updating the data base and producing comprehensive listing for the clients. And for that reason, I am responsible to search for a suitable software which can enable me to do my work more efficiently! Gosh I really need it ASAP!!!

Anyway, what’s interesting in this company is our staffs come from different regions and cultures! This is what makes our company unique and stands out from the others. If you noticed the photos I’ve posted in my friendster album, there are Russian Koreans (Russia born Koreans), German, Singaporeans, Malaysian (Me) and most probably Indonesian in the coming month. Therefore, I call our company the MNC =D

I would say that it’s fun to work with them as everyone tends to be very outgoing and interesting! Most importantly, they have been teaching me a lot of new things and at the same time improved me from my weakness. =) Thanks alot girls!

We had so much fun together in just a month working together …funny things and jokes do happen over the time….LOL! =x And I am glad we are getting more and more chummy over the time ^_^

In fact, I got to know different cultures and languages from my colleagues too. For example, “Priviat”, “Ciao”, “Tsuiz”, “Paka” etc (spellings are most probably wrong). I am just too eager to know different languages =)

We even plan to go for yoga class together! HeHe

It's nice to get along well with colleagues and hope everyone can do their best in the company! Ciaoz =)

Photo taken during company outing at Azucar!

A gleam of sunshine in my life

Finally, I can stop living in a neurotic world! I can breathe in fresh air and relax my mind and body, for the moment.

What an experience I had in Singapore during my job hunting period. I encountered many things and at the same time gained a lot of information. In terms of job searching, we cannot scrutinize every detail from one aspect but every aspect of it. Different job position has different barriers and requirements thus we must be aware of it in order to achieve.

However, there are always ups and downs in life or there won’t be what we call 'LIFE'.

Now that I came back to my hometown, feeling so warmed by the surroundings and people. I just love and miss my hometown!!

For those who are concerned, I have found a job as a Marketing Assistant in a company dealing with real estate and property. I hope this is a good start for me as a junior or fresh graduate. Also, I believe I can learn a lot of things in this company and earn as much as possible!! Hiak hiak~

Well, some of you might think why am I in Kuching since I have found a job? The answer for this is I am currently waiting for my special pass to be done in order to work in Singapore. So, here I am in Kuching having my last session of goyang kaki! Must really really treasure it this time! ^_^

Tolerance

Every single thing in my life is flowing on a negative way... It’s all against me! Nothing is positive… why so??

A gleam of sunshine, a tiny hope for success, a path towards future…

It’s always cold inside in spite of the temperature beyond.

I was thinking, if everything was set to examine my tolerance? I always used to believe I am a tolerant person. The past has proven my tolerance towards obstacles I’ve been through. I will never say give up because I wanna prove I can do it. I can be tough enough to handle things and overcome my weaknesses. I am proud of myself, for being someone better than before, and for being someone who can think rationally and wisely in every circumstance. Well, maybe not every single one but at least I always ensure I am on the right track.

“忍耐是一种痛苦的磨练，是对成功的渴望，对自我的挑战，也是对自己意志力的锤炼”。

But, how long can I sustain??

Maybe, my desire towards success is over the border.
Maybe, I should let myself relax awhile.
Maybe, it’s a lesson for me.
Maybe, it’s a test for me.
Maybe, I am just being unfortunate.

Words can’t exactly tell my thoughts and feelings now.

Sometimes, I just don’t understand what exactly I should go for.
Sometimes, I dislike the way I am.
Sometimes, I hope I am someone else.
Sometimes, I think I should accept the way I am.
Sometimes, I was thinking life is on my own hand and because of that, I can change everything I want in life.
However sometimes, not everything I want can really be mine, so I have to let go…

Now that I started to feel exhausted for being always patient, patient and patient
I doubt myself…

我可以再忍耐吗? 还是逃避?

How I wish I was on the beach now to shout out as loud as possible! Throw out all the confusions and troubles I have inside me! Too bad all I can see in Singapore are buildings, roads and cars. Boring zzz~

Really miss those nice sceneries in Australia! How I wish to go there again =(

I wish to spend my time sitting on the bench enjoying the beauty of nature and breathing in fresh air.

Or

Laying on the seashore to feel the movement of wave!

Words to express

Things are kindda complicated for me now, whether it’s my career, my emotion, my thoughts or friendship. Been suffered from insomnia lately =(

Always bear in mind, “Never expect too much from something or someone as it leads to disappointment”.

Anyway, what I really wanna focus on now is my career. I’ll just let other things to be set aside first. This doesn’t mean I do not care, but I’m just too tired to bother so much already.

I don’t expect much now as long as I can stay tough and be strong enough to face everything in my life. Should I say I feel helpless?? ........No one can help me but myself...

I'm glad that I have friends who are always there to support and care about me though they are not by my side. And of course, my beloved parents and relatives in Kuching. I promise to show my achievement one day.

I just hope time passes as fast as possible because I’m looking forward the future which I believe will be a brighter one!

Will blog more when I found a suitable job!